Baby Girls Birth Story
We had tried to get pregnant w you since late 2010. I was tracking the calendar in order to watch my ovulation to help conceive a girl. The weekend of may 1 2011 Tia Fina died. That day/week I prayed to Tia to bring us a little girl. She loved kids sooooo much, I knew shed help us. That was the "deposit" weekend also. I really think she helped make having a girl a reality.
After thanksgiving daddy n mommy wentto seenk she helped br the "ideas of march" a remake a play, great movie n well done. The last theatre movie I saw before yoou were born.
Contractions since 12/12
Several intense ones before bequests an before delivery but no patternsevelops to go in 3cm 80% since 12/28. At new years my doc said I probably wouldn't make it another week. Ha! Made it nearly 3 weeks.
For each of your births baby brought home a gift for their new brother/s.
- Older Son picked a Thor soft hammer and Younger son picked manny the tool guy. Also received spiderman/cars underwear n sketchers/animal socks
- everyone buys clothes for baby hen diapers r a better gift
- Younger son picked a handy manny construction n tools doll
I went for my dr appt on 01/11, and I told my dr that my BP were getting an staying hi, so perhaps we need to induce (against all my beliefs that when babys ready they'll come out, but I didn't want myself or baby in any more danger). Dr was available Tuesday te 17th - which is baba ulas bday. Dad said it's enuf u carry her name and he wanted to to have your own birthday. So we picke the 18th. our cousin cane over at 5:45 am to wake and take older son to school and walk younger son to babcias house. We tild the boys to expect her. I got to the hospital and they had to heck for a bed for me. I had been there for 17 NSTs over a period of 7 weeks and it was always slow, ha! So I stayed in triage for a bit and my BP was hi, 160s - I told the nurses not to worry it would fall, which is did to 130s. We completed orders for my living will and starred an IV. I told the nurse to please start the potocin drip at 1, not #5 like Younger Son. No problem! Things changes In 3 years. Then a resident came and checked via ultrasound that the mead was down, yes u were. For several weeks! But my BP went up again to 160s. In comes Dr. McD (he's taking over as chief for L&D. We want to start magnesi sulfate. I asked what it does to baby & it would make u lethargic. I was frustrated because I didn't know what the BP meds were doing to u and now this. Is aid no, he kept repeating u hav to bit wouldn't explain y. The resident said let's push more lebatalol into her iv- I said no b/c we don't know how it affects baby log term. Then my BP hit 180- he finally said it's ur serizure, an I remembered what dr Brennan had told me about pre eclampsia. I didn't see stars or spots, I wasn't dizzy or overactive reflexes. Only hi BP. So I said I'll take the mag. Once in the room I was hooked up to an IV a d started the mag.
Magnesi sulfate sux!! It feels like the flu in the dessert. I was so hot and they had A/C on in my room. Dad said it was freezing. My teeth chattered yet I was on fire. By
11: am I had the epidural, then they started potocin. For the first time i needed increased meds for the kcontractios beyond just the epidural. Dad said they were increasing my pitocin fast which provably increased the pain. I got an wxtra shot in the IV. Then I felt your head Coming and told daddy to GEt the nurse, this time he did. Dr mcdermott came in to check me and said push when you feel like it. I was asking to push. No nurse was around and he and the reside t could t find the supply kit. Finally a nurse ran in a d got things prepped. Your head was coming out when my dr Brennan ran in. She told me to cough a few times so you'd inch out. It took about 5-6 pushes in under 1/2 hour and you were out. Daddy saw you first and got to cut the cord. We both cried alot. They put you on me right away, I asked for you skin to skin. You cried a bit. I felt. Overjoyed. I kept saying I lov u Inez. Baby girl... They just rubbed u off a little, you weren't completly clean when I got u- I loved having u on me so fast. A nurse a was happy w that too. She told dr b that was her 3rd or 5th skin to skin today.
They let me hold you for a while then they gav to dad to clean me up. Daddy didn't rub you rough enuf they wanted you to cry. So the nurse showed him how. I got u back. Nursed you. A djust enjoyed having you in my arms, u n I both safe! Then the asked if I was redy for ur bat hn u to be weighed. Waaay different then with Older and Younger sons. Except for the magnesium the best experience i had for a delivery. What an adventure. I was so happy to hav u. I held u all the time. So excited I couldn't sleep. Then I had to maneuver my IV drip to get u into the bassinet. It was hard. The next day a smart nurse changed it sides so I could easily access you. But everytime I put u in the crib u cried after a few minutes so I held u on my chest mostly. Yu had black hair. I dreamt two nights before going in that your hair was so dark when u came out, and that's how it went when the day finally came.
- in the first 24 hours after birh I was still on mag sulfate and I. A drug stooper. At one point the nurse asked to take u do I could sleep, and when u were away I just wanted u back w me. Then I was afraid what if u accidentaly were switched w another baby. Ur leg band easily slipped off, so i was concerned a bit. Silly i know. THen I remembered I accidentally scratched ur nose shortlt afte you were born and it left a scratch mark - phew- a way to ID u.
- baby Inez snorts. After the 2nd nite in the hospital I heard the first snort. Before a cry comes out or with a sigh there's a little snort (or two). On day 2 the pediatrician checking u out said you were tongue tied. She asked how my breasts were if u were nursing well. I said yes. She was surprised Nd said the tongue tie wasn't severe. & not to clip it
Then the lactation consultant cane in. I asked her to check my latch. She looked at u and said it was fine, lips flip out like fish and your
Neck should be extended and nipple to nose. Then she put you
On my chest to crawl up to the nipples that was cool. When I told her what the peritrician said she said I should clip u rite away, also surprised my nipples weren't hurt.
I creid alot that 2bd day. I didn't sleep at all - for 36 hours from the time I woke on Wednesday morning. I felt so awful on the mag the 2nd day. Could t wait for it to end.
Once I was In my own room in recovery we had decided Older son would meet u. They wheeled me a back door way to maternity not thru the main hospital. Dad and Older son went the main route. He was thrilled and didn't wanna leave u
Or mom. The nurse was So nice to put me I. The sunniest room in the hospital. She wouldn't backdown even when the other nurses said my other room was ready.
It was the first time I was alone w a new baby w out dad cause bab ula couldn't baby sit (hysterectomy) so dad had both boys to care for.
The nurse was surprised I was doing so well day one off the mag. I showered once I was I. The room. I wheeled u in w me of course, just like w Mateo. I could t be away from u at all... I slept w u rite away. U nursed constantly. They nurses chcked on me bringing pain meds every 6 hours w a colace stool softener, asked about poop pee and nursing. I said I can't giv a time, she's Constantly nursing- they'd hav me guesstimate. I was so happy to be nursing, determined to be successful. And quickly I lov w u.
Going home, the first snow storm of the years . DD wanted to get me home and pick up Older son from school. We made it. U ate before we left the hospital a d right when we got home. I'm so happy I cry all the time.
Saturday weight check losing weight and decide to clip tongue tie.
Can't get paper referral thru
Nsurance on Monday. Hav to pay outta pocket. Otheriwse wait over 30 days to add u to insurance
Wednesday - 1 week old - clipped tongue. Doc said to wait ten minutes til I nursed u. It was quick and painless. U were so smAll. We paid $600 outta pocket. It's a $1500 charge to insurance tho.
One month weigh check was good, everyone was thrilled u gained. But I m ew inside something was wrong cause u sleipy alot and nursed constanlty. If not on the boob u cried alot. I delayed ur 4 week check up til 5 weeks. I felt I was getting over a hump, things were getting better, we were on a routine.
You screamed the whole ride to drop off Older son at school and back. Dad had to work a few days early and couldn't drive Older son. Those were the worst. And I couldn't imagine a whole year like that. Y did u scream so much between feedings? Could I spend an hour feeding u just to feed again in 2 hours. I only sat and fed u, watched tv, fed Tao quick foods a d leftveres. Ottawa take out and packaged meals
Cause I'm still not cooking.
At my 2 weeks special post partym check up my BP was still crazy hi! I took u w me, cause all u did was nurse. I heard swallowing sounds, but not enough. My nipples Didn't hurt, I felt frustrated & alone. When I used a lactation consultant w matao I know NOW all she need ed to say was yes babies eat all the time. I felt Mateo did. She just kept saying this is normal behaviour. She was a little weird w Her thigh hi leggings and clips, telling me how the LCs in he rcroup fed eachother to learn about how babies eat.
U have a blocked tear duct, all 3 of you babies did, mom too when i was born. At 3 weeks your right eye started to leak more then usual - like large globs hourly instead of small ones at night. And then it just stopped all together.
During a nap at the breast u gave mr a little smile - and at 4 weeks I caught a second smile. U tried to immitate a sound I made when I Coo'd at u u tried to back and a little "eh" came out.
The hair on your outer ear is getting more blonde from the dark brown color at birth.
Brought home- Babcia made pierogi. Older son held u at hospital.
You sleep alot, in my arms or next to me in bed. Daddy home caring for the boys. We just nurse all the time!!
At 5 weeks I can put u down for small periods of 20 mins or so - that's when I make several sandwiches, cut up fruits, go potty, and make tea or am coffee. I corrected the latch and found a great utube video showing how to roll the lower li to get a better mouth full of aereola. It's helped alot for baby to drink all the milk in the breast am not just sux the nipple and get foremilk. Yaay! Otherwise you nurse constantly or sleep in my arms. It's actually strange putting you down because it's like your a part of my body that I'm walking Way from
You still nurse long because you chose NOT to detach - you stay latched and sleep. At night I am your pacifier because you fall asleep w me and the nipple. Mommy doesn't mind because I know at 6 months you'll fall asleep alone. And by 3 months een 2, we can hav a schedule. So this sitting around is rare!!
Today I talked to Kelly Wulf about nursing and my concerns about how tiny u r, im so used to fat babies. and feel so much better - everything you do is normal for breastfed babies like constant nursing and wantig to be by me. The hardest is when we go to pick up Older son and you cry when we first get I'm the car. But u stop after we drive for 3-5 mins. The first few xs in the car you screamed there and back!!
Also normal is that u stopped pooping several xs a day. Now Its once a week. When she looked at your latch and good fish lips sticking out everthing looked good. And it's amazing how good I feel about you nursing now!! Such a relief to know what I'm doing IS right!!
You are relaxed when nursing - your hands are rolled in fists but not clenched or stressed.
6 weeks my pimles on my face and chest have cleared up. Except for a few chest spots. Period was 2 weeks - heavier then w boys and longer spotting.
03/02- I'm sitting and pumping one side while u nurse the othr. I "feel" that I'm drained, no milk, and your hungry. Very fussy and nursing all mornig. Vs yesterday where u had a normal am nursing a nap and 2 nd nursing a nap and then the afternoon cluster feeding. 3 poops toos. Today I feel I can't satisfy u. But the facts are I'm pumping less then usual milk so u mustve drank it! And u had another poop!! Sometimes feelings don't match facts n that's where frustration comes in :-(
Today you ate all morning and as we went to alek's bday party you nursed. Then u slep, and slept, and I can't help but. Feel concerned like your sleeping from hunger or soemthings wrong. Now ur sleeping 1:00-3:00 and that's a long time!! But ull eat shortly
03/31
Moms realize that I have a high pallette an it's why you cannot lat h properly my nipple comes out looking like a lipstick tube and your tongue it tickles the tip when you eat - till week 6. Then I tried a deep latch which helped. You dot ticklete nipple (feels Like Sucking on a straw on finger to 1st knuckle) buti still didn't feel the tongue move on the nipple correctly (finger sucking sensation to 2 knuckle) or the sensation of tugging on the inner breast.
You are positioned with your head between my breasts. So with the high latch I aim the nipple at the roof of your mouth. I put the thumb right behind the niple on the aereola pointing it up. And withmy fingers under the breast in a C Cup hold squeezing it into a squish nipple/ "sandwich" so you can still tAke alot of aereola in the mouth. Then your heads tilted back and I roll the nipple to a 3 count down your top and bottom lip to train you for a wide openmouth.
Then your Chin is on The breast near the chest and when you open wide I roll your head down and flip the nipple into your mouth. In either case the nipple doesn't hurt. Your head rests on my wrist which has evolved into my having carpel tunnel (numbness in my fingers but not my pinky).
We keep a good latch but you tend to push out the niple
And bring your lower lip up, so your top lips flipped out
Like a fish but not the bottom. Frustrating to keep relatching you. Often you fall asleep as the breast, but then I ha e a second let down with in 10-15 minutes of the first and I hear lotsa gulping sounds. Then you often fall asleep at the breast - you only inthe last few days "fall off" the breast but only a handful of times. You do nurse for nearly 15-20 minutes each side. I think before 6 weeks ID let you fall asleep and not relatching u rite away. Not good cause you weren't getting enuf calories and eating enuf.
You started smiling more. When I change your diaper you smile, unless your hungry. You stare and smile. And whne your hungry you sux onyour hand/s. You fart alot and it smelss like your poop. You
Like to be warm and always covered by s blanket, I know cause ur less cranky this way.
I took fenugreek in February up to 12 pills a day and never smelled like maple syrup but I did get soft stool 1 which is nice after pregnancy. Now in on mother milk plus - 2 tinctures 3-4x a day. I think it helps w leb down ESP.
The CDC just came out w a new autism report that 1 in 88 kids has autism and the reason is better diagnosis. I of course think there's a coverup and it's related to vaccines. When Alek was born it was a rate of 1 in 166. They said thru various studies of only the MMR vaccine or only the Chicken Pox vaccine that there's no higher rate of autism. But the study that hasn't been done is the one where giving multiple vaccines at one time is measured. You would get 5 shots in one visit. But i continue to break up your shot into 2 visits with a $30 co pay each time. So you have 24 ($740) visits instead of 12 ($360). Our dr visits are nearl an hour from arrival to exit. If every parent followed my method the doctors office would have excess congestion.
04/06
You are just now getting the latch rite. There's so much I didn't know w Alek. Every time baby cries you just put them on the breast. W Alek I was so scared w the crying I reached for the bottle of formula. You by far cry more then your rothers did. When Mateo cried I would really worr cause he was also breast and bottle fed. But now I know babys cry, it's part of bein a baby. And as long as yu address the crying in a reasonable amount of time it's ok. Usually I watch he clock, I read somewherre watch the clock cause babys will usually fuss for 5 minutes and it just feels like much longer. And it does feel much longer.
I still hold u all the time. I find I can put you down in the swing chair for a few minutes to make lunch or coffee - so it's sanity in little bits at a time. Formula fed babies just go into a food coma, breastfed babies are so different.
I am hoping, praying that you put on really good weight these two weeks cause otherwise I think I'll have to supplement more so you gain - you look so little compared to your brothers . We will c. I'm not nearly as stressed out Bout it as I was w Tao n Alek. If I supplement u even a few 3-4 oz in a day that's nothing if your getting the rest from me!! ID rather not supplement at all cause I know that ca. Affect my supply, but you can't be hungry either.
We are bac to our afternoon walks. It's something I did w all babies. I remeber w Mateo I couldt wait - but it was a longer winter. W you I know you will fuss a little before we leave but then you fall asleep. Sometimes I leave u strapped on so I can prep and eat lunch and put Mateo down for a nap before I wake and feed you.
04/10
So that's it, I have to start supplementing u because u lost weight at the last check up for 12 weeks :-( but I am still hopeful. I am supplementing during day feeding and strictly nursing before bed/in bed and to comfort. You get 2 oz after nursing on both sides and you suck it down thru he SNS. I am frustrated. I know the latch was corrected but I think you hav a short tongue/chin so the suck isn't strong. When the doc told me to start a supplement she looked at me w sad eyes like she was waiting for me to cry. I didn't cry- but I screamed in the car. But no referral to a
Lactation consultant, no offer to evaluate My Latch. There's zero support for breastfeeding momS unless we seek it out aggresivly.
On Easter I was trying to express my Feelings to baba ula and she rolled her eyes and said just giv a bottle it's Easier. I realized Babcia Alina did t nurse longer then 6 weeks cause
She couldn't - in no way - sit for an hour to nurse the baby. Even today she says there was too much to do. Shed just put the baby down and do her work. The babys mustve been screaming themselves to sleep. This is frustrating because we used to be very close, but over the last few years. I feel a
Distance tween us. I thin kshe feels guilt for not breastfeeding me. I thin kseeing me stay home w my babies makes her rethink her life choices and fallin in w my dad perhaps?? While I pump or nurse I write these diaries, watch TED conference videos or play jewel quest or other strategy games.
I understand why women giv up. Bottle feeding is easier because babies sux it down in under 10 minutes and go I to a god coma for up to 4 hours (by 3 months). At birth 1 oz gets u two hours. I have done nothing but nurse u- seriously. I run to pee, get coffee and a donut to sit and nurse. You dose off but wake up if I put you Down. As did Alek n Mateo- so I don't even bother putting you down. I carry you always. Breastfeeding hards In The early months le alone add in 2 other kids. I don't mindalways. Arrting you because it's only for the first year. After this things all change from a caregiving perspective. And neither Alek or Mateo are "spoiled" but they are very loving. Mateo actually Likes to cuffle a Whole lot. I don't know if it's only cause he's 3 or cause we co slept too.? I'm e hausted by evening. For several nights I've put the boys early to bed. It takes the body alot of work to make milke- that and the energy of attending to the boys as best I can.
I'm pumping after every feeding. I can now since the formula satisfies you. I get under .5 oz total. When I do pump I never get multiple milk sprays. There's a constant drip from under my nipple and 1 spray at a time. Only if I am full - which feels like never cause I give it to u, do I "spray" milk. So I pump after you fall asleep and I shower at 10pm and maybe again at night if I can get up. Otherwise I just feed you whenever you want at night. I'm hopeful that our strength builds with the next few months and feeding and we can eventually ween u from supplements. I pump 5 minutes on fast cycle, then turn up he suck pressure and turn down the speed to immitate baby. That helps get as much milk as possible. I squeeze my breast dry. The. I stop the pump. Massage and shake my breast while bent over. I pump again, fast n soft and the. Slow w strong suction and I get a few more squirts. I can get . 5-.75 oz this way at night. After the feeds these two days I pump under .5- which is good, your getting most of the milk. I know your first feeding in the morning I mostly breastmilk in the sns - that's y I do it. I pump for a few
Minutes more after the last drops Of milk. I use a 24m size cup, w Mateo I thought 21m was better for me -
Nope. There's no pics on the web showing what the nipple should look like, by there should t be Pain. Yur immitating baby as a mouth full of nipple So a larger not tight opening is good.
I've never pumped , w any baby, more then 1.5oz, although I haven't tried a full breast w u recently. Tonight I pumped a solid 1 oz in my left breast. I injuredthe nipple at nite- I fell asleep and sometimes you push the breast out and just suck the nipple. I've een favorig my rigght breast today. I only pumped .25 on the side. But I fed u before the shower on the right. Pumping sux. Hooking urself up to a machine to suck life milk out of you- sux suc sux. Mayer just for
Me cause I don't see alotta mill? Maybe if things were goig well I wouldn't mind it. But it's not exciting. The only up side is alek and Mateo see me- I hope they are dupportive spouses when there babies come. They'll say try did watch a women breastfeed in their lives, and can confess to how time consuming it was. Alek always says is Inez almost done. But he's positive too telling me to hurry n iv her my milk :-)
Then gradually if I can get you stable there's a method to increase Mothers milk. Once we are sure of the latch and efficient milk withdrawl I would lower your sns Intake. Or another sign is if yur Leaving formula in the sns? To start you reduce sns by 1 oz forthe whole day for 3 days. When u wake earlier to feed I will give you the breast first then sns. If you do well and do t show signs of hunger then u lower 1 entire days sns by another 1 oz for the nex 3 days, Not 1 oz per feeding. And so on. I offer you the breast still constantly now. As a snack it satisfies for sure and it does at nite too. Obviously watching baby for satisfaction and any time you want putting you on The. Breast.
You smile at nearly every diaper hange. And try to coo. I say coo and wait for your reply. That's key- to wait for the reply. You take time to process the sounds information. I lov u. An yes, of course your satisfaction, and health are critical. I just don't know how to stop nursing cause I want it sooo bad. So I'll continue to sns and breastfeed as log as I can.
I'm back in bed and some
Nites u stay aslep. Other nite spike now u latch on and go back to sleep. I do have some milk in there cause you'll awallow amlittle and then doze off.
We are skin to skin, both wearing shirts that open in front so our back n shoulders stay warn.
With a weak latch and non good suck your not gett
Ng enuf hind milk I bet too. That's fatty n good for braindevelopmemt. Again we will s ee in a few
Months how things progress, cause they wil.
04/12
I lov that when I pick you up it quiets your cry. And Now I talk to you on the changing table - when your calm - and in the kitchen chair, and once you focus in on me you give a big
gummy smile. It feels wonderful it stillakes me cry.
04/20
I hav been hopeful many imes while nursing you. At birth, after the tongue tie was clipped. Then once we realized at 1
Month you weren't gaining well I was again hopeful at double checking my latch. And trying a deep latch. Then starting more Milk plus drops &new smaller flange breast shields for the pump, revising the latch, again. Fi went back to bigger flanges thinking those got more
Out?
Now, I've realized you have a hi pallette, and a deep latch doesn't cut it. You clamp down, and hav a recessed chin. I flip your lip out but you just don't take in enuf breast to get all the milk out. If we could fix that latch you'd drain more efficiently so I can produce more Milk. finally at 13 weeks(!) I'm taking 15 capsuls of Fenugreek, today back to small flanges, I had pumped 1oz at 10pm for several nights and now I pumped 1.5. Could be the pills or the flanges. I'm goin to retry feeding for a whole day in the sitting position. Then sns feed you laying down. I debated maybe just pumping to see if I can get a 1. Count of oz in my supply, 2. And take less time to feed you and then pump. Otheriwse it's tough. You take 40 mins to eat or so (usually falling asleep). Although now that I'm so aware of the former bad latch, I relatch you a couple times - but soemtimes you take just the nipple, surprisingly doesn't hurt, and I will hear gulps:-) I find too that even if your lips not completly flipped out on the bottom you someones hav a good sux that I don't wanna loose.
Trying sitting up feeding and holding nipple Pinched out. Cause you also seem to loose a good sux/latch sometimes, like you e got it, get frustrated and just let go ... I was ready to quit at 10 weeks, I really don't want to cause this is it for me. I'll nurse you until you want to stop. I lov u, my grand finale!
It's funny, baba upa says just giv u a bottle. It's so much easier. But that doesn't respect what I want to do. Ciovia ala wulf also saw us Sunday and said "ya giv a little formula, make sure she's getting enuf." o. The opposite side at the herb store the elderly woman who works there asked about my nursing and I said we are trying. That you hav a hi pallets and don sux what's there. She says "well don't giv formula, it'll giv her allergies and cause irreversible damage." I can't win, I get it from both sides. And sallys awesome, she just says she's surprised I stick with it thru all this.
I remember asking baba ula when I was pregnant if she nursed. One time se said no, the next time she said yes for 6 weeks. Today she just said the bottles so easy. "You ate, then I knew you'd sleep for a few hours and I could do what I needed. Then I knew if you cried it was hunger or a a dirty diaper." I think that's the thought of most women. I'm glad I'm sticking with it. You sux has significantly improved, and even though it takes you a long time to eat, overall the benefit of breastmilk and our closeness will be worth it. When I look at babies around us I realize 1 year is nothing, it goes by so fast, I don't een know where 3 months went - with alek's time dragged a little in the first few months staying at home. But w 3 kids it's a lot busier.
Life with a baby is tough. Everything revolves around you.
I don't even remeber what it was like when Mateo was this age. I remeber using the sns, but I don't remeber why I started it. I'm glad I started a little formula with you so you could build your suck strength and grow a little
More.
04/26
Ido remember w Tao and you that leaving the house is more hectic then w one kid. I have to make a bigger dinner and more plates, so everything takes longer. And you still want to e held alot so I only hav 20 mins or so. I hate feeding you formula but I lov holdig and nursing you.
05/01
I just learned , after 6 years of reading about breastfeeding, of Primary Lactation Failure. La leche league doesn't disclose it because many women simply think they don't haveilk when they do. Around 6 weeks somemmoms feel baby demands too much and simply give up. I know w Alek I did have engorged breasts on day 4 at home, but w Mateo and Inez I didn't get engorged. With Tao the lactation consultant at the hospital said he ate so well I wouldn't get engorge cause he frank it all. But ironically there were problems early on with his weight gain. Inez ate "well" but due to tongue tie I supplemented. Then I stopped supplementing and you ate well, but fell asleep often and were ALWays on the breast. I cannot pump more than 1.5 oz. Perhaps if your latch was better we wouldn't hav a problem. You initially latch good but then you flip your lower lip in, always and loose breast ptissye and sux only the nipple.
I pump after you eat most of the time. It's a 1-2 hour process, nursing, then SNS both sides then pump. Once your on the 2nd breast I usually pump the otherwise. Once I nursed u w sns, pumped and plywd horse w Tao.
When I pump my left side shoots milk thru 1 spout only. The right side vaaries, 1 spout or sometimes 3. But I pump 1/4oz each side after feedings. At nite I pump 1.5 oz. At least you get some antibodies this way. And the pumping gets youthe so important hind milk for brain developmet, etc. ID lov to feed u for a year, ID loved to hav fed all of u for 2 years. At least nite nursing after a year. But I'm thrilled you het something. I'm not one to quit. I'll iv you this until you self ween or whe. Ur two:-)
Yes this takes long, I'm pumping, writing n ur in my lap, Taos playing catch w a ball. There's two baskets of laundry to fold, a sink full if dishes, dinner pans and toys to put away. But in a year from now I won't remeber that. There will be more clothes to fold the . Your 12 month clothes. And hopeully I still be nursing ou, at least for snacks and at night I barely renee nursing Mateo w the sns. I don't remeber the nights feedings a all - so no I am not worried about how time condumig this is now.
05/07
Today started great and turned out difficult. Ii tried to do too much I think. We ate in the am, took Alek o school, came back to bed to eat and sleep. Got up at 11:, had breafast fed u and Tao and aeoud noon headed to the store. Well almost. You fussed so I fe u again. I am realizing I'm in this vicious circle with pumping and feeding you, add to that I have thrush and it hurts soooo bad when u latch on. I want to just pump and suckle/snack nurse. But then Iiss having you so close to mr ( I'm a sap). So we went for groceries at fresh farms an Walmart for diapers and soy milk. Got Alek from school. You slept the whole time. Got home fed u and ppumped - Alek n Tao helped me unloa the car. Then started inner ... And rite when I got the pork chops in the Pam you fussed. I ja Alek pla w u until I got the potatoes boiling. Fed u, but u fell asleep. Plated dinner and y cried. Seriously we were away from eachother too long and I feel safe u in a carrier w me in the kitchen, except when I'm cooking (on a four burners no less). Then u wouldn't nurse w sns in my bed and screamed. You burped 3 x.z and still cried. Daddy finished the boys dinner and ate too. Then he came and took I so I could shower - he put the boys to bed when I brought u up after their dinner.
I was crying, it hurts when u refuse the breast. But after dad played n comforted u - which he loved - u fell asleep w me. Dad said it was the first time he "helped me" w u. That hw was very hands on w matao and Alek. IRS cause I nursed u the first two months.
Tomorrows a better day. Trying a new pumping routine.
05/09
I am breaking all the rules. Boxed food, tv, tv, and more tv. Dads working late all week and I cannot manage bed time.
So tonight instead of u screaming as I dress Mateo - Alek can handle his pjs, a tshirt- I am puttig u down at 6:30-7- while the boys watch Nindjago. Or Olivia cartoons. You had two hard evenings Ina row just screaming. But I hunk I prepared your formula wrong and that's why. I was putting powder first not water. Thank god I nurse cause your wouldve been even worse off. Mostly cranky and a few Loyd burps. Your calm and eating nicely already.
05/21
Smiling bay!!! All the time. You started cooing in response to our talking to you. You recognize mom dad Alek an Mateo. ID say your mostly happy. For the last week you've been screaming at night because your getting a tooth, already
05/26 memorial day weekend
We ha our first trip to the beach - you did great.
Boys plays in the moat and we ate a bottle and nursed. Once the beach was gettin bust we left. By 10:30 the lot we parked in aaas blocked off and the line to get into the dunes was half way between the entrance and the bridge.
You coo alot and seem like your talking. Today u rolled
Over for the first time. You scream at nite from tooth pain. U got Tylenol today cause u were super cranky.
The heat was tremendous this weekend. 90's w 60% humidity. I thought y swelled a
Little, even tho we kept u indoos mostly. Today I'm suffering from heat exhaustion the first time in my life. I think it's a mix of the HI BP pills and the heat.
Add in a little dyhydration, plus the pills draining more water from me, and voiuala, heat exhaustion. I felt tired, flu like
Syptoms wout vomiting, tingly legs a d lightheaded to dizzy at times.
So now I nurse u all night and first thing in the morning. Around 6-7am u take a bottle. For several weeks u nurse then sleep, so u then get a bottle when we come back from taking Alek to school. We get up @7 in car at 745, I get u last if ur sleeping, home by 8:15, but latelyu at ehungry at 6am.
06/03
Ive. Een fighting thrush since early may/late April. At first I was putting breastmilk on the red spots, which grew and grew. Finally when I had a dr appt I got nystatin cream. It stopped the painful nursin sensation(almost stopped nursing it hurt so bad). And the peeling skin. But it's June and the spots now a circle covering my entire aereola.
I read grapefruit Seed extract should help and eating yogurt. Today I found unfiltered apple. User vinegar is a nice cure, rub on after nursing daily. Which I got up at 11pk tonight to apply my first dose. Alseating high acidic fermented gods don't agree w yeast, saurkraut and vinegar in particular. Also a Sidz bath in Epsom salt or baking soda helps - in my case I'd make a paste for my nipples.i applied the apple. Cider tonight and it's been 20 minutes. My. Nipples are tingly, a nice sensation, no pain. I also just did a 1Tblspoon shit w water of the apple cider vinegar.
I'd been feeling crazy sleepy every day, muscle aches and general weakness. I worked in the garden and was exhausted after a few minutes. So much I hav avoided work since. So i gotta get serious ause i dont want this to spread. Uts already been on my neck and still on my rigt eye, in and outer corner. When my neck cleard up quick as the weather warmed, i thin sun exposure did me good, its nearly gone. The article confirmed this. I couldn't open the saurkraut jar just now. I stood a few times Olin the kitchen and laughed at myself noticing my weakness - I assumed post partum body stuff. Also a dizzy was, and a quick temper hav. BEen blamed on yeast growth. Eye floaters which i hav noticed mine as if i had more long wormlike ones versus just dots . It makes sense I'm infected because the yeast grows internally, in the. Blood, breastmilks made in the b - I feel it's a clear link. We will see how the treatments work.
I plan to juice daily (gotta do it)
Use a cotton ball to swab apple cider vinegar on my. iPods daily.
Eat salad w apple. User vinegar dressing w parsley or cilantro
Eat cup of saurkraut daily (w potatoes) :-) I still have my jars of shred cabbage from last year to cook down.
We will see if this natural beats nystatin cream - 2nd prescription. Refill btw last week!!
I may feel an effect of flu like symptoms and some intestinal discomfort as the yeast "dies off" but it'll. E worthy ridding of it forever. I've been feeling sluggish, unmotivated. I should. BE at the park everyday w Tao and Inez and I just can't get going.... I truly hope this moves me.I also read milk of magnesium helps . I'm wondering if my magnesi is imbalances and affecting my hi BP too - is this all linked??
06/16
I've discovered grapefruit red extract! It is clearing up the thrush. I saw
An immediate difference where the peeli gstopped. Butthe redness is. Ow pink and shrinking in size. I can see my aereola again. The right side outline was the worst. So I rub a little extra on there and the next day it was gone. Thank heaven. I take 10 drops w juice 2-3x a day--- so bitter in water. Then I fill 1oz water to 10 drops and rub that n the nipple every hour or so when I'm awake. My eyes still came up (like sleepers) but the pain is gone. You can't use it full strength or around the eye. Lov GSE so many uses, I gave some to Alek for his cough and it's significantly helped. Usually he coughs for 10 days +, so far it's really helped subside it.
